Rachel's Challenge

I accept it, so I'll be blogging more often. I already wrote down my goals, too.

I had a very disturbing thought the other day. I was thinking about asking some friends if they wanted to hang out, then I changed my mind. The reasoning behind it was that they're just temporary now, as I'll be having an (almost?) completely new circle of friends in a short while. Aaaahhhh. That's not right at all. I immediately dispelled that thought and went and hung out with them haha. That was the stupidest thought I've had in a very long time.

In happier news, OMG UCLA. I'm so excited! I've been researching things about it, like what life is like on campus, what events I'm supposed to go to, what things there are to do for fun... I'm really excited to see the beaches around the area. They look really nice! I'm not quite sure how far away they are from Ucla, but that's what public transportation is for, anyways. Too bad I can't bring my surfboard. Well, I guess I could, but it would end up being more trouble than it's worth. I've looked into the student organizations on campus, too. 600+? Geeeeeze. That's a lot of ways to meet new people! I'm going to be as social as possible when I get there. I don't know what it is, but I just like being around people. I love it. I can't stand being home alone. Even if they're strangers, I enjoy the company. Like the other day, I just went to Borders because I was bored and lonely. I didn't talk to any strangers or anything, but just being around other people and not isolated at home was very comforting.

That being said, I wonder if I'll miss San Diego? I've noticed that I really don't have separation issues and I deal with whatever "losses" come my way with relative ease. I know it may sound cold-hearted, but it really isn't. Like even though I don't see my sister very often, and it's actually been maybe 2 or 3 weeks since I've seen her last, I don't really mind it. I think it's the fact that I know I'll see her again soon that makes it alright. Likewise, I expect I'll carry that same attitude towards leaving San Diego. I don't know, I just adapt to new things easily I guess. Could be a good thing, could be a bad thing. At least I know I won't get all reminiscent and forlorn, at least not often. Life's about the here and now, anyways. Look back only when necessary.

I'm sooooo excited for all of the possibilities that the future holds for me. The near future, really. In 6 short months or so, I'll be starting the next chapter of my life. So much good can happen. There are so many things I can learn there, and I'm not just talking about academically. Aaahhh now I'm getting excited all over again! Ok well it's off to Yogurt World and then Brawlin afterwards for me...